After two months of silence, I think I am finally ready to return to the blog.
I know I have probably said this ten times before, but things are going to be different around here.
First, a few reasons for the disappearance…
1.) Work was busy, and it wasn’t even a matter of making time for the blog: working 60 hours a week and squeezing in recipe development, writing, and photography while staying mentally well just wasn’t going to happen.
2.) I was tired of the blog. It wasn’t bringing me joy, and I needed to seriously think about why I was doing it. This blog began to feel like a ball and chain: I felt more stress and fatigue than fulfillment and joy. It was also hard to separate myself from the number of followers I had on social media, my blog stats, and other measures of “success” that, at the end of the day, really didn’t (and doesn’t) matter. I didn’t check my blog stats once during my time away from the blog and it felt so liberating to just not care.
There were times when I felt pressured to make the space a certain way; I felt like I had to put myself into a box and slap a label on it, specifically beautiful Pinterest-friendly “eat-clean-wellness-vegan-food”. I still think a whole foods, plant-based, vegan diet is the most beneficial to our health and the most ethical way to live, but putting myself and my blog in that box meant not sharing and exploring my other culinary curiosities. I want to learn and grow as a cook by making my way through cookbooks, working on my plating, and sharing that journey on the blog. I will also probably talk about the politics behind food. I’ve mentioned this so many times in the past (you know, how this was going to become more of a food and sustainability blog) but it just isn’t possible to consume and enjoy food without considering the very broken system behind how we grow, transport, and market the food we consume.
This is going to become a more personal space, a sort of thinking and culinary journal for myself. I have a feeling that more than a few people will stop visiting because of the changes ahead, but with all the incredible blogs on the interwebs, I know they will find something they enjoy more.
I’m thankful for everyone who has ever taken the time to stop by the blog. Seriously, THANK YOU!
Until next time…