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Raw Vegan Pistachio Ice Cream – For My Mother

raw vegan pistachio ice cream // gratitude and greens // #raw #vegan #plantbased #recipe

raw vegan pistachio ice cream // gratitude and greens // #raw #vegan #plantbased #recipe

raw vegan pistachio ice cream // gratitude and greens // #raw #vegan #plantbased #recipe

I never knew what heartbreak truly felt like until I began losing my mom to Alzheimer’s. She was diagnosed a year and a bit ago, and a few months ago, I wrote a post on how nothing prepares you for Alzheimer’s. Since the post, I’ve received an outpour of support and it has meant so much to me. Friends, some of whom I rarely spoke to, messaged kind words and sent medical articles to me whenever they found something they thought would be helpful. I’ve appreciated every single instance of kindness, but it hasn’t been easy. It gets especially hard during this time of year, when Mother’s Day rolls around and each day I am bombarded with never-ending ads for cards, flowers, and brunches. I hate to say it, but I began to feel bitter about the holiday, until I realized that my mom wouldn’t want this. I miss her, and it hurts so very much to be reminded of what I could have had with her.

I always wonder if I made the right decision in choosing to live away from my parents as I start a life for myself. There isn’t a single day, or hour, that goes by without me thinking of my mom. On the nights I can’t sleep, I stay up and think about what went wrong, what I could have done better, how this could have been prevented. I want to blame someone, anyone, but my friends—and the doctor—tell me that there is no one to blame. These things just happen. I absolutely despise the fact that it was my mom’s mind, the part of her I cherished the most, that succumbed to disease.

raw vegan pistachio ice cream // gratitude and greens // #raw #vegan #plantbased #recipe

I think a lot about the questions I never got to ask my mom. Mom, what was the weirdest thing I did as a kid? If you could eat anything for the rest of your life, what would it be? What is your biggest fear? What is your biggest regret? There are so many things I want to ask her, and I find every path I have to negotiate a little harder because she isn’t mentally present enough to guide me. My mom was so much more than “just a mom”: she was my best friend, a caregiver, and was so kind to everyone she encountered. She was endlessly optimistic about my sisters and I, and she gave everything she had in raising us. My mom had the sweetest smile and there was a great sense of independence and feistiness that lived inside her. She was also a brainy math and science genius who tried very hard to get me to love math.

Mom, I miss the long talks we used to have every day over the phone. I loved that we talked about the most random things. I loved that you tried to help me with math homework over the phone. I miss sitting around the dinner table with you and Justina and Alexis, the four of us holding our stomachs as we died of laughter, trying so hard not to spit out the dinner we were chewing. I miss telling you every detail of my life and listening to you do the same. I remember that time I called you when it was 2am and you were in bed, all because I freaked out about not being able to find my birth control pills—the same ones you took me to get when I first told you I wanted them. And when I gushed about my first love, thinking he was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, you listened, even though you knew I could do a lot better and just knew it wasn’t going to happen. You were so supportive of my decision to go vegetarian and took me to all the best vegetarian restaurants in the city. I also love that we are both obsessed with smoothies, vegetables, and digestive biscuits. I think I got that from you.

Mom, you are such a big part of me. I am who I am because of you. No one has known me longer and better than you have, and no one will ever be able to replace you. I love you so much. Thank you for bringing me into this world and choosing to mother me. I couldn’t have asked for a better mom, even if you were only mentally present for the first 21 years of my life. You are the strongest, smartest, and kindest woman I know. Alzheimer’s ain’t got nothin’ on you.

This raw vegan pistachio ice cream is dedicated to my mother, because it’s her favourite flavour ever and that she will stop at nothing to get ice cream when she wants it. Happy Mother’s Day, mama. I love you.

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raw vegan pistachio ice cream // gratitude and greens // #raw #vegan #plantbased #recipe

 

I’m currently re-testing the recipe and have removed the recipe temporarily. 

 

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41 Comments

  1. Farrah
    May 10, 2015

    I’m not all that wonderful when it comes to comforting words, but I just wanted to let you know that I think you are incredibly strong, and I know it must be so, so hard to be going through this right now, especially on a day like this, and that not having something to pinpoint the blame on makes it that much more difficult. I know it’s way more easily said than done, but try not to feel bad about living away from your parents to start a life for yourself–that’s something that I’m sure your mom would want for you, and I think she’d be really proud of you.

    This was a beautifully written (and heartbreaking) post, and your mom sounds like such a wonderful person. Sending lots of love and hugs to you and your family! <3

    P.S. The pistachio ice cream looks amazing. :]

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    • genevieve y
      May 13, 2015

      Thank you so much Farrah, your words are more comforting than you know. Thank you for the love and hugs- sending them right back at ya. xoxo

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  2. Lisa | The Viet Vegan
    May 11, 2015

    Sending lots of love and e-hugs to you, Gen. I would be nothing and nobody without my Mom, I can’t imagine the amount of strength it takes for you to see your mother go away in moments. Your mother did a wonderful job raising a lovely and compassionate woman. <3

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  3. ShinyPool
    May 11, 2015

    looks like one finger-licking ice cream!

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  4. mar
    May 11, 2015

    <333333333333333333333333333

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    • genevieve y
      May 13, 2015

      Thank you so much Mar. I know several people who go by Mar and I’m not sure if you’re any of those… regardless, your hearts are very much appreciated. xo

      Reply
  5. Arman @ thebigmansworld
    May 11, 2015

    You are so strong, Gen.

    This recipe looks delicious but seriously. Strong words.

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  6. Rebecca @ Strength and Sunshine
    May 11, 2015

    This is a stunning recipe dear! I know your momma is so proud of you and she is one amazing woman who raised one amazing woman ;)

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  7. Harriet Emily
    May 11, 2015

    What a beautiful post and recipe. You are so strong, brave and courageous. Sending lots of love and light your way! :)

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  8. Allie
    May 11, 2015

    Gahhh, this post almost made me cry. I wish you all the best. As for the recipe, the ice cream looks great – pistachio is one of my favorite ice cream flavors. I also love the red-patterned bowl.
    Best of luck to you!!

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  9. Emily @SinfulNutrition
    May 11, 2015

    Beautiful post. My thoughts go out to you. Pistachio ice cream is a favorite of my Mum.

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  10. Ashlae
    May 11, 2015

    You are not alone in wondering whether or not you’ve made the right decision in choosing to live so far from your family. I think about it every day – if I made the right decision – but ultimately I am happy, and I think that’s all that matters. As for losing your mother to Alzheimer’s, I can’t even begin to imagine the sort of pain you feel. But isn’t is something that you got 21 glorious years with her? She seems like a good woman, your mama. You are so damn lucky to have her, Alzheimer’s or not.

    Big hugs to you, lady.

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    • genevieve y
      May 13, 2015

      Thanks so much, girl. I try to think about all of that during the hard times- I really am lucky to have her, Alzheimer’s or not! xo

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  11. Carmen L.
    May 11, 2015

    You are an example of your mom, she raised you well so stay strong and do what you do well! the ice cream looks yummy.Lots of hugs are sent your way!

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    • genevieve y
      May 13, 2015

      Thank you so much Carmen! Hope you are doing well! I think you’ll be happy to know that my balcony garden is flourishing beautifully- I’ve got lots of radishes, spinach, kale, and berries on the way! Sending hugs to you too. xo

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      • Carmen L.
        June 8, 2015

        The makings of a new recipe? I an well we all are, stay beautiful…….Carmen

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  12. Lauren @ Eating with a Purpose
    May 11, 2015

    I so admire your positive outlook amidst a difficult time. Thinking of you and your Mom. I will definitely be trying your ice cream- one of my favorite flavors!

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  13. Natalia
    May 12, 2015

    This post is one of the most emotional mother-daughter related I have ever read…you just made me cry, Gen! I wish you lots of courage!

    The recipe looks perfect, I have been craving for ice creams lately and can’t wait to make one this we!

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  14. Dixya @ Food, Pleasure, and Health
    May 12, 2015

    i somehow missed the post about your mom, its very unfair when things like this happen and at this time, i just want to send you big hugs. there is a blog http://www.merrygourmet.com/ who writes (or wrote) wonderful stories about her father with Alzheimer’s. I hope you will find some comfort and strength through those stories..

    on a different note, this ice cream sounds wonderful and i would love to try making pistachio butter.

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  15. Rachael@AvocadoADayNutrition
    May 12, 2015

    I am so sorry for everything you and your family is going through. Your post was such a beautiful tribute to your mom – I can imagine how proud she is of you! Your story makes me want to call my mom, to ask her some of those questions but also to share your amazing recipe for pistachio ice cream! When I was growing up in New York, there was a department store in Manhattan that had a small carousel and an ice cream shop where she would always take me to get my favorite flavor – pistachio! Sending lots of love your way as I know this is a difficult week.

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  16. Katie (The Muffin Myth)
    May 12, 2015

    What beautiful and painful words. I know what it’s like to be far away from your parents and have their health unravel, but the devastation of Alzheimer’s I don’t know first hand. Hugs to you and your family. And this beautiful ice cream! I’m pinning and will be making this soon!

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  17. GiGi Eats
    May 12, 2015

    I wish I could still chow down on the pistachios! They’re the BOMB!

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  18. Lisa @ Healthy Nibbles & Bits
    May 13, 2015

    First of all, what a lovely post dedicated to your mom! I’m so sorry that you and your family have to go through this, but it’s so important to cherish all those lovely memories you have with her. This post definitely hit me because I still remember when my grandmother went through Alzheimer’s. It broke my heart when she could no longer remember who I was. But as long as I keep those memories alive, she’ll always be my same old loving grandma.

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  19. Heather
    May 13, 2015

    It must have been difficult to write this post (or perhaps cathartic), but I imagine these are words many of us can relate to and appreciate you sharing. The ice cream sounds fantastic — a sweet gesture of love toward your special mum!

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  20. Sonali- The Foodie Physician
    May 13, 2015

    This post is such a beautiful tribute to your mom – she seems like an incredible woman and clearly you take after her. I can only imagine what you’re going through and my heart goes out to you and your family. On a happier note, this ice cream looks phenomenal and since pistachio is actually my dad’s favorite flavor, I think this would be perfect for Father’s Day :)

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  21. Sus @ roughmeasures.com
    May 13, 2015

    What a heartbreaking, but beautiful post Genevieve, Alzheimers is such a horrid disease, and you are so brave, especially to be so honest and share your families sadness. Nothing can make this rubbish thing much better, but know that your recipes light up my day, and the online network of friends is a strong and supportive one. I’m sure your mom is extremely proud of you! This ice cream looks beyond words amazing, my mum’s favourite is also pistachio, definitely going to have to give this one a go.
    xxxx

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    May 15, 2015

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  23. Kristen @ The Endless Meal
    May 18, 2015

    This ice cream sounds absolutely amazing … just like your mom. My grandma was diagnosed with Alzheimers a few years ago. It’s such a sad disease. I’m so sorry to hear you and your family are going through this.

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  24. EA-The Spicy RD
    May 29, 2015

    Such a lovely post and tribute to your mom-she sounds like a wonderful lady! I love that you made this ice cream for her. It looks absolutely fabulous!

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  25. Sarah | Well and Full
    June 16, 2015

    My mother is everything to me. I can’t even begin to imagine what you must be going through. But what I can definitely tell from reading your words is that you are an amazing, caring daughter and your mom is blessed to have you. Sending prayers and hugs your way :)

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  26. Josie
    July 18, 2015

    Hi I can’t have roasted nuts Do you think it would work if you just blended raw pistachios until smooth?

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    • genevieve y
      July 18, 2015

      Hi Josie, that would work! Good luck and let me know how it goes :)

      Reply

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